So I was going to do a post earlier today, but never got around to it. I had something written and everything. After writing it, I decided I didn't want to post it and that it just felt good for me to write it all down. Like Dori from Finding Nemo, I thought, "Whew. Glad I got that off my chest!" So that was that and I felt a little embarrassed to post. Like I would be writing a poor me, pitty party, sob story. But just before going to bed tonight, I went to one of my most favorite websites, lds.org and watched the following video [check below] and I knew I had to post tonight.
Besides, its been over two weeks since my last post so I figured it was time.
I have been feeling quite discouraged today. And this past week. Have you ever felt like you just want and need a break from life? Just need to get away and forget everything that is surrounding you for a while? Boy, let me tell you. I have sure felt that lately. I feel like such a rotten person for saying that too. Because I mean, I love life. I really do. And I really have nothing worth complaining about. I am doing things in my life now that I have always wanted to do. I volunteer at the hospital every Saturday; by the end of this summer I will finally have all the credits I need to get an Associate's degree from MCC (woohoo!); I am in a Respiratory Care program at Gateway, getting a head start on my future career; I have a great, steady, part-time job; I live at home, just me and my parents (though I can't say that is something I have dreamed about :) I am in a great singles ward with amazing people; I have a calling that humbles me every Sunday; I have a family who loves me, friends who care. I am so blessed. So so so blessed.
All too often, though, I let little things get to me. I get so annoyed and fed up that I find myself getting cheated out on greater happiness that is right there in front of me. When I get in these discouraged moods I find myself asking, "Why did this have to happen to me? Again?! This is so stupid!" I throw myself a tiny pitty party, trying to cut it short though. (Who ever feels good in those kind of parties anyway?) Then I am reminded of the most important things in life. I take a look at all of my blessings and remind myself of all that I have in store for me and all that I have going for me. I have so much to accomplish in this life. If I stay feeling bogged down now, then there is no way I will be able to move forward. I know where I came from, who I came from, why I am here, and where I am going.
I am determined.
Now, check out this video. You won't be disappointed I assure you. It is just what I needed to be reminded of this week. I hope you get something out of it as well!
